April 13, 2009
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Balancing Act
Recently I have found myself teetering on a worn tightrope trying to balance my emotions and manage my life. Major changes personally and professionally have threatened to rob me of the peace and joy I’ve resolved to live my life by.
Many times I’ve felt so hurt and hopeless. The intellegence and emotional investment to develop something profound relationally and in business has left me exhausted, empty, angry, confused, and alone.
I reeled with confusion with how people operate in such painful and pedestrian ways – and with why I again I’ve become wounded by their actions. I wondered if my prayers were unheard. Defeat reigned over my spirit.
However…
I see a glimmer of hope. I’ve been encouraged and supported. My value and worth is immeasurable, and the gifts God has given me have yet to be used to the fullest potential. I have to recognize that the love I have to offer is not to be wasted on those who don’t desire or dare I say…”deserve” it.
Wisdom dictates that in order to see true change; I cannot do the same thing and expect a different result. If I want things to be different, I need to do things differently. Fear and insecurity has stopped me at one level or another my whole life. It’s time for that to change.
Comments (3)
I feel like you’re speaking about me also.
I want all the best for you – it hurts me to see you challenged and unappreciated on so many sides. I hope the glimmer of hope turns into a bonfire. I’m going to do things differently now, too, because you reminded me.
peace be with you,
jana
Make that call today!
I hear ya on the fear and insecurity… that has been the story of my life. Its my biggest challenge each and every day. But in the last 2 years I have been continually meeting that challenge and am the most content I have been in a very long time. At least in the romantic relationship department.