Month: July 2009

  • A peak at…

    Blue Danube from 2009 Strauss Festival

  • Strauss Festival Performances

    Tonight marks the completion of the 2nd performance of the Strauss Festival.  It’s exciting and exhausting at the same time.  I’ve been on TV and in the newspaper this week.  Photographers from regional magazines have been here to cover the event, and the wonderful community continues to support this wonderful artistic event.

    As many times as I considered giving up, there were just as many reasons for me to continue.  This activity was on my “list”, and I’m blessed to have followed through with it.  I’ve met wonderful people and had a great time with family and supported by great friends. 

    Two more nights to go.  Then focusing on practice building…Thank God that the phone has started to ring over the past few days.  It’s all in His timing, but it sure can be scary.  Faith…Faith…Faith…

  • Happy Birthday to me…

    Thank you Lord, for another year…with family and friends, ups and down, tears and triumphs.  Thank you for it all.

  • Countdown…

    Birthday countdown…2 days…Strauss performance countdown…2 weeks. I think I’m more excited about Strauss

  • The Simple Things

    That’s what camping represented.  No nonsense, most basic needed things
    of life.  Food, water, and family.  Everyone joked and said I would
    suffer missing my     amnemities of life that I’m used to and spoiled
    by- washer dryer, lighting, shower, heat, etc.  But, nope…I really
    didn’t miss it. 

    It was nice to sit and relax with no worries
    of chores to be done.  It was calming to fix the most basic, simple,
    hearty meals with everyone’s participation in the process at some
    point.  It was peaceful to listen to the leaves rustle walking along a
    trail.

    The kids appeared to have a great time and you couldn’t
    help but smile when they giggled and laughed.  How can you not find joy
    in that? 

    It would have been perfect except for one
    thing.  Sadly that loss resonates in my core and doesn’t leave despite
    the smiles and laughter.  I pray for God’s healing grace to remove it. 
    Replace it.  Fill it.  I know only He can.  It is not my will, but
    His.  It’s not what I want, but what He wants for me.  That’s a hard
    lesson to learn.

    So in the wilderness, I still found Him.  And He was still with me.

  • Rest


    It
    was a day of rest.  It felt strange because I couldn’t overcome the
    fatigue, so I succumbed to it…I allowed it to envelope me and take me
    blindly through the day.  A few moments my bleary eyes opened and
    squinted against the bright sunlight.  I quickly closed them and rolled
    over to a cool spot on the sheets. 

    My mind, thankfully was
    not filled with incessant ideas, thoughts, or worries as it usually
    is.  Endless mind racing is the culprit for my insomnia.  It’s enough
    to take away your sanity,but thankfully I’m still sane. 

    I
    felt my week was successful and in one day I had a personal and
    professional success that was meaningful for me.  It demonstrated how
    there has been some healing, strength, and emotional development. 

    I
    saw…and saw that he saw…I walked in and out with no emotions or
    feelings positively or negatively.  That’s where love can go – no
    where.  It can disintegrate and turn into nothing, like it never
    existed.  That’s good to a certain level, perhaps.  Why love someone
    who doesn’t love you?  It’s a waste of time, energy, and emotion. 

    Focusing forward is the goal.  There are important aspects of life that need follow through.

    Joy
    and celebrations coming upon us.  I can’t believe next week I’m
    celebrating another birthday.  I had hopes for something more and
    different, but it was not meant to be.  It’s another year gone by
    without the dreams that I’ve hoped for.  I suppose that’s why I don’t
    make such an effort to celebrate my birthday.  I haven’t had very many
    positive experiences, but thankful for those times where people who
    loved me have done nice things for me.  I think really because they
    know that my history has showed little appreciation or acknowledgment
    for that matter.  It was hurtful especially since I usually do so much
    for others.  I suppose now I don’t have expectations to avoid
    disappointment.

    So one day at a time… :)

    I look forward to spending the weekend camping with friends and family.  It should be fun.