April 17, 2008
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A show, more like a guilty pleasure, I watch is Dirt on FX. I cover my eyes and peek through fingers sometimes at the graphic scenes displayed and even lower the volume sometimes with the elicit sounds and language, however there was dialog in the last episode that struck me in an interesting way…
The situation revolved around an older woman who was addicted to plastic surgery. Per the characters, it was like her opiate. In her last, yes final, surgery she died. As the daughter and main character, Lucy, was processing her grief, she is trying to come to terms with the reality of it all…
“Death…I get it. It’s guaranteed. I understand that. But why does it seem that everyone is so oblivious to the fact that they’re swimming in deep water until they drown?”
“‘Cause we’re stupid. We all do stupid things, Lucy. I have. You have. We just don’t think they’re going to kill us.”
It creates thoughts within me about what I’m doing, why I’m doing it, and how I live my life. I experience frustrations, joys, and sorrows just like everyone. Is my life representative of what I truly desire? Tomorrow is not promised, so what am I doing today?
Are my actions, choices, decisions, beliefs, self-talk, value system, principles, social surroundings, personal environment, career, stressors, relationships, or emotions my deep water?
I wonder…
Well, nevertheless I did some things to move forward in my life. In tasks I suppose. Emotions I hope to follow.
