May 15, 2009

• The kids have been able to swim in our pool for the last couple of days;

  my
  neighbor gave me tons of rock so I can further plan my rock garden
  backyard with a fountain (I just have to find and get a fountain I
  like);

  Work is slooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwww and I’m afraid of
  what will be, but with the efforts I’m making, God gives me a glimpse
  of progress;

  I’m praying about the personal safety issue.  There is a client that is dealing with counter-transference.  He’s focusing some inappropriate feelings towards me  (he thinks he loves me).  Although I have addressed the problem, it’s something that has not taken affect yet and I need to make a decision quickly.  Even with that, there are not enough safety features (cameras, lighting, additional locks, room alarm, another person/security) that I feel I need to be safe.  Honestly it boils down to finances and setting things up.  I can do it alone.  In some groups, it’s just me and men.  It’s not always unsafe, but occasionally I get this “feeling“.  I know God is with me. 

  I’ve been approached to challenge the unfortunate
  situation from about a month and a half ago.  I’m seriously considering
  it.  What have I got to lose now?

  I’m still considering the move, and weighing the pros and cons (open to ideas);

  Basically all my thoughts are about change…

  
  

  I’m
  begining by telling God that I want to be a productive, fruitful
  disciple, one who cooperates with His plan (even if I don’t understand
  or get it).

  
  

  
  I need to ask God to use His Word to change the way I think.  I need the Holy
  Spirit to have free rein in my life. At this point there is no reason to hold anything back.

  Anyone
  who reads this, what do you do when you desire change in your life?  Do
  you just let the thoughts run through your mind yet choose not to take
  action?  Are there areas where you need to stand instead of hiding in
  your shell?  Is it time to be assertive and take what God truly intends
  for you?

  I clearly am projecting, but I often wonder if I’m the
  only one who thinks this way.  I like to process my thoughts and
  feelings with someone and although I’ve been given the opportunity by
  interested parties; I’m not so interested.

  So I guess sometimes I’m talking to myself here…It’s kind of lonely.  I do know of my faithful few who read and respond.  That gives me such a great level of comfort.  Thank you so much.

  God Bless.

  K

  Have a great Friday and a great weekend!

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