June 10, 2009
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Sorry I’ve been out of touch…
Hey all…
I know I’ve been missing for a while. I think I’ve been just trying to handle the daily things of life, the obstacles and the challenges, and getting through the days.
Last weekend I passed my Motorcycle Safety Course the first time around! I suppose
for most people it would be easy, but I’m excited that I’ve fulfilled a
desire I’ve had for some time. I was the only woman in the course, but
that didn’t deter me.While I was there and riding, I had
flashbacks and images of Keith which brought sadness, but I pushed
through by remembering his great smile, wonderful warm laugh, and
encouraging words.I miss him…I’m also tired of being alone.
I
want to go on rides. I want to get away on weekends. I want to hold
hands on the beach. I want to have quiet, romantic, intimate dinners.
I want someone to lovingly look into my eyes. I want someone to laugh
with…someone to cry with…someone to pray with. I want a spiritual
leader…husband to share my life with. So much on my mind, I guess.It was a bittersweet day.
I know when I’m in a melancholy mood, it’s time for me to change something in the house, so the last couple of days I’ve been painting, bought a new comforter set, and two new lighting fixtures. That might give me a temporary mood elevation.
My daughter turns 19 on Saturday. She leaves in less than 3 months to be a married woman in D.C. I don’t really feel anything. Is that strange? I’m looking forward to her starting the next chapter in her life. Perhaps because I want it for myself as well. I don’t know….
Comments (2)
Congrats on passing the MSF course! I hope you’ll ride safe and keep on practicing your riding skills.
Do you have your own motorcycle yet?
I can understand how you’d feel numb about your daughter going off and being a married women. Perhaps the reality of the situation won’t really affect you until the day it happens. That’s usually what happens to me!
Hi Karen! I know you will meet someone great. It’s natural to just accept that she’s going. You’re young, so you can venture out a bit more now, right?