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Wednesday, 08 July 2009
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Happy Birthday to me...
Thank you Lord, for another year...with family and friends, ups and down, tears and triumphs. Thank you for it all.
Monday, 06 July 2009
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Countdown...
Birthday countdown...2 days...Strauss performance countdown...2 weeks. I think I'm more excited about Strauss
Sunday, 05 July 2009
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The Simple Things
That's what camping represented. No nonsense, most basic needed things of life. Food, water, and family. Everyone joked and said I would suffer missing my amnemities of life that I'm used to and spoiled by- washer dryer, lighting, shower, heat, etc. But, nope...I really didn't miss it.
It was nice to sit and relax with no worries of chores to be done. It was calming to fix the most basic, simple, hearty meals with everyone's participation in the process at some point. It was peaceful to listen to the leaves rustle walking along a trail.
The kids appeared to have a great time and you couldn't help but smile when they giggled and laughed. How can you not find joy in that?
It would have been perfect except for one thing. Sadly that loss resonates in my core and doesn't leave despite the smiles and laughter. I pray for God's healing grace to remove it. Replace it. Fill it. I know only He can. It is not my will, but His. It's not what I want, but what He wants for me. That's a hard lesson to learn.
So in the wilderness, I still found Him. And He was still with me.
Saturday, 04 July 2009
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Rest
It was a day of rest. It felt strange because I couldn't overcome the fatigue, so I succumbed to it...I allowed it to envelope me and take me blindly through the day. A few moments my bleary eyes opened and squinted against the bright sunlight. I quickly closed them and rolled over to a cool spot on the sheets.
My mind, thankfully was not filled with incessant ideas, thoughts, or worries as it usually is. Endless mind racing is the culprit for my insomnia. It's enough to take away your sanity,but thankfully I'm still sane.
I felt my week was successful and in one day I had a personal and professional success that was meaningful for me. It demonstrated how there has been some healing, strength, and emotional development.
I saw...and saw that he saw...I walked in and out with no emotions or feelings positively or negatively. That's where love can go - no where. It can disintegrate and turn into nothing, like it never existed. That's good to a certain level, perhaps. Why love someone who doesn't love you? It's a waste of time, energy, and emotion.
Focusing forward is the goal. There are important aspects of life that need follow through.
Joy and celebrations coming upon us. I can't believe next week I'm celebrating another birthday. I had hopes for something more and different, but it was not meant to be. It's another year gone by without the dreams that I've hoped for. I suppose that's why I don't make such an effort to celebrate my birthday. I haven't had very many positive experiences, but thankful for those times where people who loved me have done nice things for me. I think really because they know that my history has showed little appreciation or acknowledgment for that matter. It was hurtful especially since I usually do so much for others. I suppose now I don't have expectations to avoid disappointment.
So one day at a time... :)
I look forward to spending the weekend camping with friends and family. It should be fun.
Sunday, 21 June 2009
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Strauss Festival Fundraiser - A Stroll Back In Time
June 19, 2009
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I'm praying and brainstorming strategies to overcome obstacles that have been put in my way. Psalm 31 today.
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